Omg i can't believe it i was waiting for a cab right outside LADC took really long.I kept peeking into the studio to get a sight of Fadzil,but i couldn't.Then i was like oh well.Thereafter i had to go to the toilet.Went to safra came out and i saw FAdzil!Believe it or not after that i was happy felt like a kind of peace,like when your so worried abt a loved one in the end you found out he or she is safe that kind of relieve.I'm not sure,Have not felt like this in a long time.Do i really like him.He seems like hes intrested but dun want to commit.I'm afraid.What if.........i'm wrong.......

Russ is fucking attached after he said he can't commit to me.But i guessed ,sad to say he made a right decesion a wise one for once.It'll be dumb to date a girl u dated before and still not hurt her again when ur only 19 years of age.I sincerely hope Mel woon't hurt him.I really hope they'll last.His decision made me more eager to move on in life.Holding on to the past just proves to be hopeless and meaningless.Thus,on friday early morning.I threw that horrid box the one that holds the first cigarette we smoked together,The presents i got but nv been able to give,his picture.I didn't throw his presents cuz i still treat him like a friend.I treasure our friendship.However i'm i dun think and dun ever want to look back.Dwelling on it just brings pain thats not necessary.

In this process of moving on i found a new like.A guy that i would never imagined to fall for.A malay(no offence) against them cuz my parents alws made fun of me.He flirty,difficult to comprehend seem to me a bit introvert and secrective.But i love his stupidity,his guts to be positive and happy.I love his voice although his a bit tone deaf(i'm a real big sucker for voice).He appreciates dance ,the arts.He watches cartoons and still not mind horror movie.Andy i liked cuz he reminded me of russ.His the first guy in such a long run who never reminded me of russ.However he's to hard to grasp i do not know what he is what made him the person he is and what he truly thinks.I just want to be his friend for know.

I'm getting more and more open to people i should start building walls and not let pple know abt my past!

Haha karen told russ n the rest that i was attached.Russ looked upset,I hope he was upset cuz he feels like he missed his boat.I dunnoe he was concern.But he left like as if he didn't care cause his slp was more impt.I think after this he feels like he shld leave me alone n let me move on maby he learned something during this.That i won't wait for him .Maybe i dunnoe.God i like him so much i can't stop thinking.what shld i do is he it the one god planned.I dunnoe.I knew he is ,it felt like it but we didnt last.I just need to move on.I need.Life's been a rollercoaster a lot of problems this year no money with many injuries my C back i even slp slanted now i can really feel it curve.I wish i cld run to russ and snuggle up to him and cry and pour my sorrows out in his arms.But i can't i cld but for wat to get myself attched to him.Everytime i go over to his place i cant bear to leave.Everytime after our little intimate sessions i was dying to snuggle in his arms.But i cldn't i didn't know what he wants.

Omg he just called me i think he was worried so sweet.he talk to me for and hr plus.And hes still shamelessly flirting.I alws end up with him i really dunnnoe what he wants he wanted to ask gen and mel shows he had other intentions.So sad lah.Shows how much he likes me wonder if he thought of me first.i dunnoe.But it shows how much he still likes gen and mel.Sianz I think i shld just give up if he can date ppl like this and still likes me shows he doesn't really like me.

One of those days thinking about him wishing he would just be right next to me.I hope he does think about me i really dunnoe i feel like his mor concern about the other girls then he is to me maybe he sees them more.I feel that love we had for each other is fading its going away.I want to hold on to it but for what.Because he said (heard frm karen) that i would be the girl he'll marry is like making a childhood game promise abt marriage.It wont happen its not real.Plus he didnt even tell me.It really made my day though.But it's just a dream to get u pass a boring day.

I want to be like the tiny dancer in tim mcgraw song.Tired and sick of worldy politics i can't avoid.Rest in someone arms who'll embrace me so tight tat my pains fades,trpubles runs away and happiness n bliss floods my soul n body.Thats only a dream i dun think i'll even meet anyone.

Wgat char said on her blog today shows me russ has reached another level of maturity.Russ is going thru life on his own with everyone but me by his side.Does he really like me for who i am someone he can run to and seek help n comfort when he needs or just someone who hes been dying to slp with his fantasy girl.Not really the girl hes looking for.His flaws are so bad like not getting a present which really upsets me.If the day he does i will fall fully for him

Russ - Swift around. says:
??
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
sry
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
something wrg with myh wireless
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
anyway u were saying
Russ - Swift around. says:
i saw saying
Russ - Swift around. says:
i where got scary one...
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ur not
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ur very prdictable all the time
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
most
Russ - Swift around. says:
yeah lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
then y u say i scary
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
no becuz u seldom so serious one wat
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i scared
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
haha
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm just paranoid
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ignore me
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
eh not doing hmwk ar
Russ - Swift around. says:
doing doing...
Russ - Swift around. says:
going to finish son
Russ - Swift around. says:
soon
Russ - Swift around. says:
and going to slp also
Russ - Swift around. says:
u dun wanna slp ah?
Russ - Swift around. says:
tml no need to go sch meh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm still think sorting mytots out
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yee
Russ - Swift around. says:
yee?
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
so fast sleep alr ar u
Russ - Swift around. says:
yeash
Russ - Swift around. says:
u wanna talk is it
Russ - Swift around. says:
aku peng sannnnnnnnnn
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahahah
Russ - Swift around. says:
tml got super long day aheadl ar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
fine
Russ - Swift around. says:
i dun mind talking lor...
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
aiyar

Russ - Swift around. just sent you a Nudge!

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
uwant to slpthen slp lor
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'll just talk to the wall
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

Russ - Swift around. says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
dun try to be funny ah u
Russ - Swift around. says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm not
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ivery fan alr
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
dun desiao me i tell u
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
dun so fan lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
why u think so much
Russ - Swift around. says:
..
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i dunnoe

Russ - Swift around. just sent you a Nudge!

Russ - Swift around. says:
why u dunnoe
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
becuz i cannot stand it when theres something i cannot find an ans
Russ - Swift around. says:
...
Russ - Swift around. says:
ok...
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but as usual i dun dare to ask ppl
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
so i very fan lor
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
guess guess here guess guess tat
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
at the endof the day i know i'll just ignoreit
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but it'll be better if the ans justappear
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
haha
Russ - Swift around. says:
wah lauz....
Russ - Swift around. says:
ok....
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
wah lau wat
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
eh u nv ans my qn
Russ - Swift around. says:
u power lehz
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
wat u mean by u'll do something abt
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'll myself to this wednesday to forget it
Russ - Swift around. says:
that means there ain't gonna be anytime like that anymore
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
omg i'm so embaressed
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i insulted my frens dancegrp
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
in froent of everyone
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
without knowing he was in it
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
omg omg omg
Russ - Swift around. says:
u very good lehhhhhhhhhhhhh
Russ - Swift around. says:
dun change topic leh
Russ - Swift around. says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
lol
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ok
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u say something lah'
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ask mesumthing i dunnoe
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u alr gave me a ans alr wat
Russ - Swift around. says:
why? why do u wanna follow mee
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
why
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
must there be a reason
Russ - Swift around. says:
well
Russ - Swift around. says:
that i dunnoe lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
that's why im asking
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i oso dunnoe
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
some things just happ for a reason
Russ - Swift around. says:
why do i ask someone something that she doesn't know
Russ - Swift around. says:
and wats that reason
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
and this nv happens to me n my ex flings
Russ - Swift around. says:
so why
Russ - Swift around. says:
why
Russ - Swift around. says:
why
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
can u read btw the lines
Russ - Swift around. says:
i know lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm shy and u know i wont give u and ans str8 in ur face
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
it just happ
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i dunnoe y oso
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahahah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i put my self far away frm u
Russ - Swift around. says:
i know u also lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but it just keeps happening
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i really dunnoe
Russ - Swift around. says:
then i shall put myself far away from u.....
Russ - Swift around. says:
pardon for the straight forwardness
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
no its ok
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
come on
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
were not tat close
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
seriously
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
do u see a need to
Russ - Swift around. says:
hmmmm
Russ - Swift around. says:
since its happened so many times i think its betta
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
after 5 times it happ dun tellme its just for fun
Russ - Swift around. says:
partly yes
Russ - Swift around. says:
partly no
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
?
Russ - Swift around. says:
but i think lets not go thru this half fuck stage anymore lar ah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
y?i'm justasking
Russ - Swift around. says:
huh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yyes y no
Russ - Swift around. says:
1stly
Russ - Swift around. says:
i've got to admit im still abit attracted to u
Russ - Swift around. says:
and yes
Russ - Swift around. says:
just yes lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
hmm
Russ - Swift around. says:
hmm?
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
idunnoe wat to say
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahhaha
Russ - Swift around. says:
that was me for the last few lines u know
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
huh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i know
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but guess wat i'm still flusttered
Russ - Swift around. says:
there's no such word
Russ - Swift around. says:
dun con me
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
there is
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
maybe i spelled it wrgly
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
hvnt been writing
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahah
Russ - Swift around. says:
only dancing rite
Russ - Swift around. says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yar lah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i feel dumb
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i still dunnoe wat i shld do
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
flustered
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i dunnoe
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
4get the spelling
Russ - Swift around. says:
how should i tell u wat u should do man
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i dunnoe
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i do want to know sumthing
Russ - Swift around. says:
??
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but i dundare toask
Russ - Swift around. says:
rowr
Russ - Swift around. says:
im doing to do work in 15min
Russ - Swift around. says:
i mean 5
Russ - Swift around. says:
betta shoot if u can ah
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
forget it
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'll just pretend nth happ
Russ - Swift around. says:
askkkkkkkkkkk

Russ - Swift around. just sent you a Nudge!

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i cant
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm scared
Russ - Swift around. says:
pls lar gal
Russ - Swift around. says:
i know ur betta than that
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'mnot russ
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u dun noe me russ
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i rather live it a question
Russ - Swift around. says:
ouch
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
den an ans i dun want to know
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm really scared
Russ - Swift around. says:
then i dunnoe wat to do if u dun ask
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i've been thru so much shit this 3 yrs
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm really afraid
Russ - Swift around. says:
huh....
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
its ok
Russ - Swift around. says:
u know me
Russ - Swift around. says:
when u say its ok
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
justignore me
Russ - Swift around. says:
i will really take it as its ok
Russ - Swift around. says:
i dun want to u knnow
Russ - Swift around. says:
just that u dun wanna ask
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u alr sttated ur stand rus i accept
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
n i give up
Russ - Swift around. says:
i know im a bastard...
Russ - Swift around. says:
la...
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
its not it russ
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u didnt force me to do anything
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
its my fault
Russ - Swift around. says:
why is it ur fault?
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
cause i knew i cld hv not let anything happ but i did
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
and i can be misleading
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
its not alws ur fault
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u dun hv to keep blaming urself
Russ - Swift around. says:
well most of the time it is, rite?
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
no
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u noe wat i think the one most in fault is me
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
in the past n now
Russ - Swift around. says:
that i dunnoe
Russ - Swift around. says:
why do u sat that
Russ - Swift around. says:
say
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
cause
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i was sick ididnt tell u just expected u to accept
Russ - Swift around. says:
as in depression
Russ - Swift around. says:
?
Russ - Swift around. says:
??
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
iwas unreasonable i know but i couldnt help it cuz my face was more impt then ur forgivenss also becuz i was sick
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i wasnt only depress russ
Russ - Swift around. says:
this was last time ur talking about rite
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yes
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
dumb ass
Russ - Swift around. says:
sorry sorry
Russ - Swift around. says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
carry on
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
and i'm still sick
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
no longer depress if not i'll be screaming at u
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
just like not long ago i had tumor
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
itold karen
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
a lot of nonsense
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
cldnt remeber stuff
Russ - Swift around. says:
tumour where....
Russ - Swift around. says:
ur parents all aware rite
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
and i lost my place in dance
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
duh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
helo
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
who the pays for operation its over anyway
Russ - Swift around. says:
but hey, that bad period is over rite
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but i'm just very weak
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
anyway
Russ - Swift around. says:
where did the tumour occur
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
in my head duh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
read pls
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
a lot of nonsense
Russ - Swift around. says:
how come we didnt know of the operation?
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
one thing i hatd abt myself is i'm really reliant on ppl
Russ - Swift around. says:
last time
Russ - Swift around. says:
i dun think so now leh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
y wld ppl know if i didnt want ppl to know
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm not
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
if not u'llbe dead by now
Russ - Swift around. says:
???????????????
Russ - Swift around. says:
wat u mean sial
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
haha
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahaha
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
if it was me last time i wont lt u go soeasily lor
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'll make u feel so guilty
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u'lljust agree to wateva i say
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i done tat on u b4 its proven
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
lol
Russ - Swift around. says:
well
Russ - Swift around. says:
i do have a few weak points
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahah
Russ - Swift around. says:
u ah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yar i know
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'mjust not going to use it to my advantage
Russ - Swift around. says:
are u ok with everything now not

Russ - Swift around. just sent you a Nudge!

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm not
Russ - Swift around. says:
y y y y y y y y y y y y y y
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but i'mwill forget
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
erm
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
are u ok?
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm happy with th situation
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
and if does happen again i wldnt mind
Russ - Swift around. says:
ur not ok, but ur happy
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

Russ - Swift around. says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
haha
Russ - Swift around. says:
i dun get the ur not ok, but ur happy party
Russ - Swift around. says:
part
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
russ u alr made up ur n=mind wat do uwant me to say.and there is nth i can do abt it wat
Russ - Swift around. says:
and if it does happen again i wouldnt mind
Russ - Swift around. says:
??????????!
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'mjust happy theres still someone put tat still attracted to me dun anyhow think lah u
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i like thecommitment free feel
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
cuz my flings are so clingy but i dun hv so much time toentertain them
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
alws ask me stupid question
Russ - Swift around. says:
wah
Russ - Swift around. says:
that means im quite smart lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
no
Russ - Swift around. says:
ah fucj
Russ - Swift around. says:
fuck
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
its diff u dun trat melike a gf u treat me like a griend
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
its diff
Russ - Swift around. says:
wah
Russ - Swift around. says:
ur typing damn jia lat leh
Russ - Swift around. says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
friend
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i know
Russ - Swift around. says:
haha
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
shuddup

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@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
idiot
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahahahha
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
very funright
Russ - Swift around. says:
ok lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm just curious do u think it'll still happ to u if it was gen
Russ - Swift around. says:
u mean this thing? nah
Russ - Swift around. says:
i doubt so
Russ - Swift around. says:
talking bout gen
Russ - Swift around. says:
u all still think i interested in her ah?
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i dunnoe
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
so are u
Russ - Swift around. says:
no lar...
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
every body knows ur not rdy for relationships tats the only thing we know
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahah
Russ - Swift around. says:
thats quite true
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
its very true lah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
y u so fast give up
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
not fun one u
Russ - Swift around. says:
scared la
Russ - Swift around. says:
lol
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
scared of?
Russ - Swift around. says:
relationships
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
y
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
my god did itraumatise u
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
lol
Russ - Swift around. says:
no lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
i just want to live life singly
Russ - Swift around. says:
if that's wat u call it lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
honestly i dun think its fun
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
arent u like a bit envy of kenneth and nick hving a gf
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm wuite u'll feel like tat once in a while
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
*i'm quite seur
Russ - Swift around. says:
well
Russ - Swift around. says:
its nice to see them have a gf lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
ken not really lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
not really gf
Russ - Swift around. says:
but im ok lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
guess im used ot it
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ok urgone
Russ - Swift around. says:
??
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ur going to be single for 5 years
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
and i willadd on 5 years later if u have to
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
so u gave up on gen because ur afraid of relationship
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
it doesnt make sense after u waited for herfor 5 years
Russ - Swift around. says:
5 yrs?
Russ - Swift around. says:
where got so long
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahaha
Russ - Swift around. says:
my friend made a darn good point
Russ - Swift around. says:
if u cannot make ur self happy, wat makes u think u can make other ppl happy?
Russ - Swift around. says:
and another point
Russ - Swift around. says:
if u can't support urself, bout ur gf?
Russ - Swift around. says:
ah....
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
if ur not happy means ur missing something in life
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
if ur supporting ur gf u shld ditch her
Russ - Swift around. says:
not say support as in totally lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
but come out money most of the time
Russ - Swift around. says:
then u suffer for the rest of the week because u treat her to makan once or wat
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
but treating her once make the rest of the week
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
just see her happy
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm quite sure ur happy
Russ - Swift around. says:
yeah lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
n theres no on earth who is happy
Russ - Swift around. says:
just example example
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i know u very loser leh
Russ - Swift around. says:
why
Russ - Swift around. says:
OUCH MAN
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
dunnoe how to retailiate
Russ - Swift around. says:
im like that one wat
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i noe tats y its fun
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i hate toking to douglas cuz he thinks hes nv wrg
Russ - Swift around. says:
hahhaha
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
wat were intending to do if we didnt tok abt this today
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
omg my phone cannot call
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i'm going to change it
Russ - Swift around. says:
ur phone died already lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
i dunnoe
Russ - Swift around. says:
just talk kok
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
heh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i meant us u idiot
Russ - Swift around. says:
huh
Russ - Swift around. says:
ok
Russ - Swift around. says:
i abit gone gone already lar
Russ - Swift around. says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
i talk to u another time canz
Russ - Swift around. says:
very tired already
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
fine fine
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
bye night
Russ - Swift around. says:
sorryyyyyyy
Russ - Swift around. says:
5 more min
Russ - Swift around. says:
uploading some stuff to my ipod
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ok
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
irritating
Russ - Swift around. says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
so now warning i going off soon ah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ans me can
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ireally dun want to tok abt it again
Russ - Swift around. says:
ask me again can
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
idiot

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@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
argh hate my phone
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
nvmlah forget it
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
so upset
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:


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Russ - Swift around. says:
ask me again
Russ - Swift around. says:
1st u call me a loser
Russ - Swift around. says:
then u tell me im a goner
Russ - Swift around. says:
u win already lor
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u read lor
Russ - Swift around. says:
wah lau
Russ - Swift around. says:
alot leh
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ur not the only whose tired
Russ - Swift around. says:
dun like that leh
Russ - Swift around. says:
plsss
Russ - Swift around. says:
...
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i asked u what were u intending to do if we didnt talk abt this
Russ - Swift around. says:
i answered alr
Russ - Swift around. says:
talk cock and bull story la
Russ - Swift around. says:
just u know
Russ - Swift around. says:
talk
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i dun understand
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
is like incoherent to my question
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
cld u explain
Russ - Swift around. says:
OH
Russ - Swift around. says:
ok
Russ - Swift around. says:
i dunnoe what i was going to do if i didnt talk
Russ - Swift around. says:
let it be?
Russ - Swift around. says:
ah
Russ - Swift around. says:
now i get u
Russ - Swift around. says:
wah lan
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
wah lau
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
so irresponsible one
Russ - Swift around. says:
THATS WHY WE TALKED TONIGHT
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
sudd i hv a lot of things to ask but nvm
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
eh i intiated it lah
Russ - Swift around. says:
i knew u would
Russ - Swift around. says:

@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
yar
Russ - Swift around. says:
aiyah
Russ - Swift around. says:
another time lar
Russ - Swift around. says:
i gotta go off already
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
i didnt say anything the last time
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
okok
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
bye
Russ - Swift around. says:
i'll tlak to u soon lar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
eh u still owe me movie
Russ - Swift around. says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
good nite
Russ - Swift around. says:
seh alreadu
Russ - Swift around. says:
yeah yeah
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
dun think abt running away
Russ - Swift around. says:
i'll watch porn with u the next time round
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
ok
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
u say one ar
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:

Russ - Swift around. says:

Russ - Swift around. says:
good niteeeeeeee
@de-Don't shape urself for the dance,Shape the dance to urself says:
nightz

After whole night of conversation,i'm hurt i'm disappointed buti cant do anything abt it.Just pray tat i'll find someone before he does so i dun hv 2 suffer the pain.I must forget n resist him.He'll be the guy i love the most.I hope when hes rdy i'll be the 1st one he turns to.But after so many yearsgod still gives us chance to rekindle the feeling.Should i say its a blessing to fill up my loneliness,a sign tat were inseperatable,or to learn something out of this.
I dunnoe,maybe hes the one maybe there is somone nearby.I really need to find some one to rely on.I really love i wish i had the courage to say.but like he alr stated his stand i dun wabt to sway.Its probaly the best way out for the 2 of us.
The club was unforgettable.Its my happiest moment of my life.Our best memory at least mine with him.I pray god let me let him go take this pain away.

Omg i can't stop thinking of him.My god wats wrong with me after 3 years although we had on n offs but i never missed him so much.I dunnoe wat to do my god .I dunnoe what he wants he never message me never calls.Is he the one will i find someone better.I know i could but will i .I really want to knowwhat he thinks.But i'm too afraid to ask,I'm afraid cuz i dun want to hear the same stuff over again."i'm not ready" and i feel that he still likes gen which drives me nuts.He can't b with someone when he cant love me as much.I dun hv to be with u i just need to know where i stand,I just need to know i dun want to guess.i"m so confused i"m afraid to ask afraid to tell.wats wrong with me.
That night at MOS i feel weird as if he was giving me the wrg idea on purpose.He asked me to kiss him in front of his friend and at random moments as if we were still together.He has been very sticky.like he whispers weird stuff in my ear i'm not sure whether hes serious or not.he held my hand pull me around.The most shocking part was "hey i'm going to look for my friend u want to follow?" i'm like huh? i just obliged and went .in front of karen?he kept asking whether i had anyone in mind ,douglas blahblahblah.
I dunnoe is he hinting,or hes testing waters and i gave him the wrg impression tat i'm not intrested.god help!