Omg i can't stop thinking of him.My god wats wrong with me after 3 years although we had on n offs but i never missed him so much.I dunnoe wat to do my god .I dunnoe what he wants he never message me never calls.Is he the one will i find someone better.I know i could but will i .I really want to knowwhat he thinks.But i'm too afraid to ask,I'm afraid cuz i dun want to hear the same stuff over again."i'm not ready" and i feel that he still likes gen which drives me nuts.He can't b with someone when he cant love me as much.I dun hv to be with u i just need to know where i stand,I just need to know i dun want to guess.i"m so confused i"m afraid to ask afraid to tell.wats wrong with me.
That night at MOS i feel weird as if he was giving me the wrg idea on purpose.He asked me to kiss him in front of his friend and at random moments as if we were still together.He has been very sticky.like he whispers weird stuff in my ear i'm not sure whether hes serious or not.he held my hand pull me around.The most shocking part was "hey i'm going to look for my friend u want to follow?" i'm like huh? i just obliged and went .in front of karen?he kept asking whether i had anyone in mind ,douglas blahblahblah.
I dunnoe is he hinting,or hes testing waters and i gave him the wrg impression tat i'm not intrested.god help!