One of those days thinking about him wishing he would just be right next to me.I hope he does think about me i really dunnoe i feel like his mor concern about the other girls then he is to me maybe he sees them more.I feel that love we had for each other is fading its going away.I want to hold on to it but for what.Because he said (heard frm karen) that i would be the girl he'll marry is like making a childhood game promise abt marriage.It wont happen its not real.Plus he didnt even tell me.It really made my day though.But it's just a dream to get u pass a boring day.

I want to be like the tiny dancer in tim mcgraw song.Tired and sick of worldy politics i can't avoid.Rest in someone arms who'll embrace me so tight tat my pains fades,trpubles runs away and happiness n bliss floods my soul n body.Thats only a dream i dun think i'll even meet anyone.

Wgat char said on her blog today shows me russ has reached another level of maturity.Russ is going thru life on his own with everyone but me by his side.Does he really like me for who i am someone he can run to and seek help n comfort when he needs or just someone who hes been dying to slp with his fantasy girl.Not really the girl hes looking for.His flaws are so bad like not getting a present which really upsets me.If the day he does i will fall fully for him