Haha karen told russ n the rest that i was attached.Russ looked upset,I hope he was upset cuz he feels like he missed his boat.I dunnoe he was concern.But he left like as if he didn't care cause his slp was more impt.I think after this he feels like he shld leave me alone n let me move on maby he learned something during this.That i won't wait for him .Maybe i dunnoe.God i like him so much i can't stop thinking.what shld i do is he it the one god planned.I dunnoe.I knew he is ,it felt like it but we didnt last.I just need to move on.I need.Life's been a rollercoaster a lot of problems this year no money with many injuries my C back i even slp slanted now i can really feel it curve.I wish i cld run to russ and snuggle up to him and cry and pour my sorrows out in his arms.But i can't i cld but for wat to get myself attched to him.Everytime i go over to his place i cant bear to leave.Everytime after our little intimate sessions i was dying to snuggle in his arms.But i cldn't i didn't know what he wants.

Omg he just called me i think he was worried so sweet.he talk to me for and hr plus.And hes still shamelessly flirting.I alws end up with him i really dunnnoe what he wants he wanted to ask gen and mel shows he had other intentions.So sad lah.Shows how much he likes me wonder if he thought of me first.i dunnoe.But it shows how much he still likes gen and mel.Sianz I think i shld just give up if he can date ppl like this and still likes me shows he doesn't really like me.